Madrid

Hello!
I'm in Spain! Today was my only free day so I spent it walking around with my dad. We bought the first Harry potter book in Spanish.
It's weird how similar Madrid is to Barcelona or NY and maybe even London... Oh well it's a nice city with wild architecture.
Ive been up since 2 am and I'm really tired now. But at the airport I saw Ezgi returning from China!! It was cool.
Last time I went to spain (2 years ago, Barcelona) I tried to ask for ice cream but the women started talking to me in Spanish and I just awkwardly stared at her. Today we got ice cream, and I said everything correctly and understood everything the woman said to me, so I was proud. Also I got to ask where the books were. So much improvement! This might be sarcasm.
Anyway off to summer camp tomorrow,

FRIENDS mail me because I feel lonely and awkward and sad because no one mailed me.

Planning Ahead

I'm really irritated today. I think it's because I'm frustrated at something, and I'm listening to depressive songs and writing emotional scenes about my most tragic character and failing to draw anything.
Seriously though, I feel like I am this tragic character and I'm just snapping at people like he does and feeling absolutely horrible like he does.

Anyways, I don't think I'll blog again for a while, because there's not much to say. I'm going to Madrid this weekend and I'll stay there for 2 weeks for a summer camp. I don't know what I'm doing after that but I hope I come back home for at least a week. By the end of all this I'll probably post everything I've written or drawn.

Yeah, bye.

Some Nights

I really like this song!

Today is the 23rd of June! That means it's...Ezgi's birthday!
Happy birthday! You're such an amazing person! I keep saying happy birthday, and I hope my gifts were enough to flood you! I refused to celebrate your birthday or give you gifts on your party because it wasn't your actual birthday, but now it is! So I must overdo everything!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!


Today I went horse riding. I expected to do the usual stuff, but my teacher said "Atla Begüm, araziye gidiyoruz."
I looked at her like, wait, what? Arazi means land or terrain. In this case it meant 'area with paths and untamed weeds'. I did as she told me though. I got on Feliste, and together we went through the back sides of Atlıspor and into the road. I car passed by. I thought it was very amusing.
We went down a path into the 'wilderness'. Nature around me, Feliste below me, it was an amazing experience and it was definitely one of the most fun things I have done in horse riding.
Then Irmak arrived and I had to lead her and Feliste through the grass, and it was hot and I was in leather boots and extremely tired. But oh well, it was fun.

Now I'm going to add finishing touches to my 2nd chapter and mail it to me editor.
Hee hee.

Birthday Post

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Today (actually, yesterday since it's past twelve) was my birthday!
I turned 15 (finally) and I'll be the same age as Ezgi for one day...and then she turns 16! :D

I had such an awesome day, I thought I had to talk about it.
I woke up at 6 with this horrible feeling in my guts which I later on realized was excitement.
I decided to open Ezgi D's gift around 7. And my Gettheva, (Gettheva is the goddess in my story so lately I've been using her name a lot) it was... it was so very special. It made me smile wide even with my gut pain and tiredness. To someone who doesn't know us and our friendship, this gift is simply a hat. But I teared up even at the sight of it. It's black cloth was familiar, I remembered every detail about it. There still was that huge rip I'd made on it, so I grabbed a needle and string and sewed it up. Then I wore it for the rest of the day. I'd say more about it, but I'll say all that to Ezgi, plus I have other things to talk about.
Just...  I can't believe she would give that to me. Thank you so very much. It's such a special gift.

Well I spent the rest of the day until 12:00 walking around the house, trying to find something to do.

Anyway after noon we went to some place with some friends, and although I thought I had planned this, they gave me a surprise party! And I was totally clueless about it! I got so happy too! I was just really shocked.

Well then we hung out there for a long time and I thought it was so awesome and possibly the best birthday party I've had in a while!  Thank you, to everyone!

I got such awesome gifts... from books, CDs, comics, to handmade lightning bolt ear rings, a holy statue of Jeffy the snail, to the One Ring. Now I consider myself Frodoette.

Ezgi made Jeffy the snail out of play dough for me... and all you need to know about Jeffy is that he is an awesome invisible snail and he is the reason to everything in this world!
And then she emailed me a short story (not so short :D) about some of my characters! I knew about the general plot of it, since we had talked about it for an art trade before. But everything else was a surprise to me. It was so well written with vivid descriptions, and it gave me so many emotions! I felt what he was feeling, I felt his anger, his despair, his envy, it was just so beautiful! You made me hate one of my characters! But that's a good thing too, he's a bad guy. I think I already showed to you how I felt about it, but I'll say it again: It was just so amazing and I love you!

Ahhhhh so much more to say but I'm so tired!
Basically, it was so much fun and everything was awesome, thanks everyone!

Gahesssssafshtfh

I have this twisted feeling in my guts. I woke up at 6 because of it, and I still have it. It still bothers me. It's like...hunger...or just extreme nervousness. I don't know why I'm this excited though...
I get excited on special days like New Year or my birthday, and it is my birthday, but I've never had this feeling before. It stinks! It really bothers me. I hope it goes away.

SUMMER

Hello!
Our school year finished! We have a long summer holiday now! :)
I can't explain how much I had begun to dislike school. I hated it, I was done with it a month before it ended. Maybe this is because I had a bad second semester, or just because they pushed us too much.
But I really had a bad semester. Not just academically, I had friendship issues, and I turned from this emotional girl to this seriously angry person who had to hold herself back so she didn't kill anyone. Seriously. I've become so angry. Instead of being upset, I get outraged. It's very hard to explain this anger too.
I've been suffering because of this one 'friend' for years now, and this year I had enough with it. So I won't deal with him anymore. And this person lit the fire inside of me, so thank you very much (!)

Anyway, no more ranting! It's time to be happy and run outside under rainbows with unicorns and dragons!
I'm going to be very productive this summer, and in two days I already have been! I drew 11 main characters of my story, I'm writing the second chapter (it's going slowly...but going!) and approaching the end of the game I got a week ago. Also, lots of music!

I'm going to learn to play the bass guitar from my dad, and I think I'll take lessons on the drums too. Ezgi and I are planning to make our own awesome band.
For some reason I think bass is much cooler than normal guitar.

In these last two weeks I got to spend a lot of time with Ezgi D. She's such an awesome person and such a special friend! I remembered how much fun we had in 7th grade and all that we've been through with her. A shout out to you, have fun in China! I'm missing you already, pork! Don't forget to send me a postcard, and I didn't open your gift yet! The temptation...

Oh yes! My birthday is this Thursday. I'm pretty excited, I don't know what for, but mostly because I think Ezgi T is going to make a gift for me (and my gods, the things she makes are awesome!)  and I'll get to open Ezgi D's present too!

I'll continue writing on this blog. I really enjoy doing this, and if you're not our teacher next year, Mr. Dale (I'll be very sad :( ) I can still talk to you through this blog, if you read it.

Yes, finally, thank you very much for this awesome year Mr. Dale! I always looked forward to English class, and I enjoyed it! It was like a fun cool-down time where we could relieve the stress of the day and yet learn so much! I wish to meet you at Starbucks again one day, and talk not about time management, but what we have done with the time we have managed with Ezgi. Thank you for all that you have taught us and being so awesome!

HOLY AWESOME GLASS FACTORY, BATMAN!

We went to Eskişehir as a class today. It was a long and hot trip, and outside was cooler than inside the bus. We were dying in there. We were melting to death. Anyway, we visited a glass factory.

I knew about the general process and what the machines looked like, but I was still so amazed. It was awesome. So very awesome, especially for a pyromaniac like myself! The huge room was a mixture of gray and black metal, orange fire, and the first orange then clear glass.
It's very hard to describe. It was nothing like the factory I had imagined. The order of the machines and the mechanisms was absolutely impressive, and everything was so exciting. I wish I stayed there for longer.
I also with we could take pictures, or that we stayed there long enough under an air conditioner and the factory was not impossible to draw so I could keep something more concrete for memory, and not only the images in my mind.

My friend Levent suggested I write a battle scene in this setting, and that got me even more excited.

I'll probably do that, and I'll describe it (or try to) in that story.

Anyway, also if there's any writing on my blog that you like, please tell me!

Finals Week So Far

Hello!
We're having our final exams here.
I think this week is very fun. You get to challenge yourself and do whatever you want for the rest of the time.
We have long lunches and we're allowed to go out of school.
Today for lunch, we went to Mehmet's büfe and stayed there for 2 hours. We played at the park and had a 'bending fight' with my friends. So basically we acted like children, and it was really fun. But while we were fighting I fell and kind of injured my palm, so now there's something stuck in there and it aches. Oh well, we had fun.
There's not much to say, exams are going fine, so I decided to upload drawings.
Oh by the way Mr. Dale, I wrote my Hatay trip writing but Ms. Ayça took it from me so I couldn't post it here! It was a wonderful poem about Künefe :( And a weird story too!

Anyway, the drawings.


This is Onime. I was talking to Ezgi about the colours of his hands, and we decided his right hand should be blue to fit the paw of his animal, and I suddenly had this desire to draw his hands. And the result of this desire is below! Onime is an albino, by the way.

This is a digital drawing of Isadora. It was very fun to do. Isadora is one of the main characters of my 'book', she's the fourth one introduced in the first chapter.

I quite like this sketch. Last year we had plans of making our own graphic novel with my friend, and after we told Müfit about the idea he got very excited (but then he quit on us, like he always does. Never make Müfit a part of a big idea, he just leaves you in the middle of it. Doesn't matter if this is a novel idea, or something more serious. )
Anyway the characters were based on us and our school friends. The main characters were Elain and Amber who were sister, and Bronte and Mark were brother and sister. Bronte used a bow and arrows and Mark a trident as weapons. Bronte could 'bend' air and fire, and Mark could bend water and earth. Here they're having a little fight. I really really liked this sketch but never got enough appreciation for it. Oh well.

Summer Farm - Norman MacCaig

I couldn't upload the file here, but it's on the class blog. 

The first time I recorded it I had lots of problems so I did it again, but I sound dead.

Here's the link. 

I wasted an hour of precious study time because apparently I was not organized enough and my mom told me to clean my room. 

Now I have to sleep late. 

And I'm starting to lose my enthusiastic happy spirit. Thanks mom. 

villanelle

Dimensions of Identity---> here

I checked my gradebook.
Here's my villanelle.
:)

You Mean Obnoxious Person

Some people are hypocrites, don't listen,
and keep blabbering random trivial
STUFF. They are pushing my limits. Go die.

It feels like you prayed I would have a bad
day. Don't insult others if you're not perfect.
Some people are hypocrites, don't listen.

What makes them do this? I don't know. Do you
have no empathy? You're mumbling random
stuff. They are pushing my limits. Go die.

Wow, you're mean. Ran out of insults? It looks
like it. So learn more about your victims.
Some people are hypocrites, don't listen.

These people are everywhere. They're always
repeating themselves. Stop blabbering your
stuff. They are pushing my limits. Go die.

Don't try to hide your flaws. We all know you
have them. We all do. Try to be nicer.
Some people are hypocrites, don't listen,
STUFF! They are pushing my limits. Go die.